Inspiration

I have found over the past few years that writing is extremely therapeutic for me. Whenever I am able to write my feelings down, I feel better. When I was little I tried many times to keep a diary, but just couldn't write in it consistently. So now I'm going to try to write here on a regular basis, maybe I will be less stressed.

The idea of blogging never really occurred to me until yesterday when I was reading Mae's blog. It is the inspiration for this.

Where to start? I guess I'll start with today. It's been pretty stressful for me today. It started off well, but then I got some bad news about housing next year and it spiraled downward from there. It makes me wonder why some people are so close-minded. It also reminded me of my insecurity for talking with people when it will cause a conflict. I am so bad at dealing with conflicts in person. As much as I hate fighting via any sort of technology, when it comes time to bring up an issue, I just can't seem to do it. Why is that? I really wish I knew.

There are so many things I want to talk about that I don't even know where to start. I am already feeling somewhat better since I know that I have this new place to write. There are a few things I need to do before I can really explain the vast complication that is my life. I'll have to elaborate more on that later.



Can somebody save me?
Cause I’m thinking maybe
That you can take me piece by piece
Then you got your reasons
But I didn’t need them
And either way I’m on my knees yeah
You knew when I was wrong
You say that I’m deranged
I can see that you’re uneasy and its not gonna change
And no matter how far

Wherever you go I’m crawling
Either way you’re breaking my heart
Wherever you go I’m crawling
Even when we’re falling
Even when we’re falling apart

-Fallin' Apart by The All-American Rejects